Our Bodies, Made for WorshipBy Trillia Newbell | July 9th, 2012 | Category: Uncategorized | Comments Off on Our Bodies, Made for Worship
Guest Post By Connie Jakab
The first time I was bullied for being chubby was when I was 10 years old. I remember boys mocking my figure, calling me, “Connie Chunk”, and saying things like, “Why would you go to the dance? No one would dance with you.” Two boys once pushed me down a hill of thorns and weeds because I was “fat.”
All I asked for Christmas that year was to be beautiful.
I never became anorexic or bulimic, I actually decided to eat more. Everyone told me I was fat, so I figured I might as well live up to their expectations.
By the time I was 22, my eating habits and weight had become extremely unhealthy. I decided to take action by taking a hip hop class, hiring a personal trainer, and learning about proper nutrition – like the fact McDonald’s isn’t a food group. Who knew, right?
I was successful. I shed 60 pounds off my body, however the effects I struggled with AFTER losing weight were devastating.
My personal trainer was a fitness model who taught me all about her fitness model diet. One that consisted of chicken, broccoli, no carbs (except air popped popcorn), very little fruit, but I could put a bit of chocolate pudding powder in my protein shakes for a treat. Lucky me!
I became obsessed with the last five pounds that never could come off. No matter how much weight I lost, it wasn’t enough. I wanted to look like the woman on the cover of Oxygen magazine. After all, isn’t that what a woman is supposed to look like?
After the birth of my first son, I became obsessed with food and exercise, trying to prove that I could still be sexy as a new mom. I took my cue from celebrity moms to aim to look like them as quickly as possible after giving birth. My life became consumed with nothing but thoughts of what I looked like, exercise and what I shouldn’t eat.
I have wasted many years on believing the lie that my body exists to be viewed. That’s what media tells me. Well, I’m rebelling and I’m not buying it anymore. I’m still 20 pounds heavier after the birth of my second son than I was at this point with my first, but I’m changing my mindset to exercise for health and vitality. I am training myself how to eat for wholeness and health – not what I can get away with.
It hasn’t been easy. Finding freedom is always a trip from one side of the pendulum to the other in order to find out where the balance in the middle lies. I have slipped back into eating whatever I want, calling it freedom, only to realize that eating junk isn’t freedom. It’s unhealthy. I am slowly coming back to a place where I’m seeing eating healthy as freedom giving to me by God to honor the vessel He has blessed me with. To treat it right so I can live long and strong for His purpose.
I don’t think there’s a greater motivation to live healthy than to use it as an act of worship. Honoring Christ with our bodies is another spiritual act of worship. Ironically, all the things we desire with weight loss naturally follow; loss of weight, health, energy, confidence, a greater understanding that we are truly fearfully and wonderfully made.
What would it look like for you to renew your mind to view your body as a spiritual act of worship today?
Connie Jakab is the author of the blog, Culture Rebel, which is her book title being released this fall, 2012. Connie is passionate about rebelling against status quo living and encouraging others to branch out. The founder of WILD (women impacting lives daily) as well as Mpact (www.mpactdance.com), a dance company that produces shows based on social justice issues, Connie drives her passion outward into the arms of those wanting something more radical and meaningful in life. Connie is an active speaker and lives with her husband and two boys in Calgary, Alberta Canada. She can be found on twitter @ConnieJakab