Sanctify My Thoughts, Oh LordBy Trillia Newbell | November 18th, 2012 | Category: Uncategorized | Comments Off on Sanctify My Thoughts, Oh Lord
By Trillia Newbell
My friend and I sat across from each other attempting a conversation that we both knew would only happen short of a miracle. Our kids jumped and wiggled beside us as we encouraged them to eat their Chick-fil-A, the food of choice for moms with young kids. As they settled down into their seats and short moments of silence emerged, I looked at my girlfriend and busted out, “I’ve got to get out of my head.” Without even a blink she instantly understood me.
Each day as I labor to serve my children, I am alone in my home and often left to my thoughts. From my head comes the sins that often manifest themselves in being quick tempered, snappy, impatient, grumbling, or even tears. It’s a dangerous place up there—at times. Outwardly I can appear to have it together while inwardly, in my secret thoughts, I can be tempted to fear and anxiety, I can covet, and I can long to be other places leaving me discontent.
I can think at times that my thoughts are my own. No one will know my thoughts unless I tell them. No one can see that I am judging the motive of another but me. No one knows that I’d prefer at this moment to be in Paris, sipping on a café au lait, rather than sweeping this floor for the hundredth time. Oh my discontent is just in my head, I can think.
But the Lord knows. He knows the thoughts of man (Psalm 94:11). Even His word discerns the thoughts and intentions of the heart (Hebrews 4: 12). And when I look back at a week of unhelpful, unfruitful thoughts I rejoice in knowing that God’s thoughts aren’t my thoughts (Isaiah 55: 8-9).
Yet God has given me His Spirit and by His grace He will sanctify my thoughts. I can be tempted in my thoughts but I do not have to sin. I can take my thoughts captive and put on righteousness in the secret places of my soul. And when He saved me He left nothing uncovered and unclothed with Christ’s righteousness. He saves to the uttermost—to the depths of our soul and the darkest places (Hebrews 7:25).
So as I confessed my thoughts to my friend, I rejoiced in knowing that what was now in the light had already been known by God and had already been forgiven by God. But the battle rages on so I pray, “Lord would you sanctify my thoughts? You who are generous and full of mercy, please pour out your grace on me.”
I sit today anticipating His answer is “Yes and Amen!”
Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart
be acceptable in your sight,
O LORD, my rock and my redeemer.
(Psalm 19:14 ESV)